Life is sometimes unfair. We experience loss, pain and injury. Sometimes terrible things happen to us through no fault of our own. We want someone or something to blame. Many times, we believe that God has failed us. Scripture teaches us that when life seems unfair, God's people should bring their complaints to God. In the Bible, we read of people who grieved (lamented) and then called out to God for help and hope. That is a good place to start on the journey to healing.
“You know how I am insulted, how I am disgraced and dishonored; you see all my enemies. Insults have broken my heart, and I am in deep despair. I had hoped for sympathy, but there was none; for comfort, but I found none.”
Psalm 69.19, 20 (GNT)
Jenny threw her fork down on the dinner table. “It’s not fair. Johnny got the biggest piece of pie and he got the biggest piece of cake yesterday!”
Children begin life with a need to take everything in. Their life depends upon taking the first breath, taking in their mother’s milk, taking in the world through their eyes and ears to make sense of this new place, and learning to reach out and grasp hold with their tiny fingers.
Yet, children will not live long unless they also learn to let go, learn to give up that which they have received, and learn how to share. Unless a child lets go of his first breath he will soon die; unless a child releases her bladder and bowel she will poison her body. If a child never learns to release his grasp, he will be imprisoned by his own clutching.
As the child grows, parents teach the child to share. Children learn to share their toys, their food, their space and their time. Thus, early in our lives we are taught to live by a standard of fairness. Further, and importantly, we also learn that though we share, we will still have enough. Moreover, we soon appreciate that when we share we gain our parents’ approval. So it is that we learn to wait our turn, we learn not to cut in line, we learn to refrain from taking what is not ours – these are ways we learn to share. Soon we feel that we are good when we share and we feel guilty when we don’t.
As we grow up, however, we discover that life is not always fair. We learn that people do not share equally. Perhaps our hearts were broken when
someone we loved decided to leave us. Perhaps we lost money we had saved for years. Perhaps we were injured in an accident, or have had an
extended illness. Perhaps someone deliberately harmed us or someone we love.
From these very specific disappointments, we may have decided that all of life is unfair. From one or two major depressing events in our lives, we may
have been tempted to make a big jump – to choose to believe that life itself is not fair.
Difficult events may lead us to join the author of Ecclesiastes in saying:
“So life came to mean nothing to me, because everything in it had brought me nothing but trouble. It had all been useless; I had been chasing
the wind” (Ecclesiastes 2.17).
When children try to understand why life is unfair they may think it is because they are bad or someone else is bad. Throughout history, people of
faith have given several causes for why bad things happen to good people:
Our search to find meaning in life’s difficulties – to find the “why” – seems to be an inescapable aspect of being human. We search for explanations to
life’s crises. We want to know why difficult and sometimes horrible things happen to us, to those we love, and even to strangers.
Yet, often there is a nagging sense that the answers we provide are not soul satisfying. If God is testing us, or punishing us, or trying to teach us a lesson, or if we suffer because of the sinfulness of others or our ancestors, we may find temporary satisfaction in an “answer” to the unfairness of life. In some way, these explanations seem to have some fairness to them.
But, and this is a big “but,” somewhere deeper in our spirits a voice says, “This is not the God I know; this is not the kind of God I can give my
heart to.” These solutions to life’s unfairness may not bring us a full sense of peace. These answers may leave us with the uneasy question: “How is
God going to teach me or punish me or test me in the future?” These solutions may leave us with a stern, distant God, less interested in a relationship with us, and more interested in enforcing a set of rules or dogma, often at our expense.
Other people, perhaps less religiously oriented, would say the reason that bad things happen to good people can be explained by science. People
get sick because of viruses and germs. People attack other people because they “lack impulse control,” or have suffered an abusive childhood. People are injured in traffic accidents because of the laws of physics.
Yet such answers seem to describe more of the “how” than they describe the “why.” A mother, who learns that she has inherited a rare disease and
will probably die before her children are grown, may know “how” she came to be ill — it was hereditary — but still agonize over the question “Why?” How can it be fair that she will not survive to see her own children live into adulthood? And more troubling to her still is the question of how can it be fair that her children may have inherited this same disease.
The question “Why?” as regards the unfairness of life is often at its most basic level not a question at all. Rather it is a statement. The statement is
something like this: “What happened to me is unfair. I don’t deserve this. I am angry about this. No explanation about why this happened to me
would be good enough, because it is not fair.
I won’t let go of being angry until somebody, until God, fixes this. I am just going to be angry, because what happened to me is unfair.”
For this reason, if we find ourselves not satisfied with answers as to “how” something happened – I was distracted, or I was drunk and my car ran
into you – we still find ourselves continuing to ask “Why?” We are probably protesting that something unfair has happened to us, that we do not want to
accept what has happened to us, that we are angry about what has happened to us, and that we do not intend to change our attitude until someone or God fixes it.
What we may be most angry about is that the universe and God are different from what we want them to be. As children, we were taught that
to be good and to win our parents’ approval and safe keeping we needed to learn how to share, to be fair. As adults, a part of us continues to believe
that we will always be safe if we are good. We believe if we share with others, if we are good to others, life will be fair to us.
We discover through illness, accident, crime, natural disaster, and through the hurts that other human beings cause us, that life is not always fair. We would like to stomp our feet, cry and say, “It’s not fair!” As adults we may do this by asking “Why?” When no answer satisfies us, and we continue to ask “Why?” we know that protest lies at the bottom of our question.
This booklet is based on the assumption: “Life is often unfair.” The answer to “why” remains an open question or perhaps even a mystery. We turn in this booklet to ask how we will respond to these givens: that life is often unfair and that we do not know why. How, in the midst of the mystery, do we cope with the unfairness of life?